128. That number now haunts me. No matter what I used to do, how much I ate, that number was a norm and a constant in my life. Other people struggled with their weight- but not gangly me.
I was always made fun of as a kid for being too skinny, and a little bit awkward. I was this tall (5’7 when I was 12 years old, but at that time only weighed about 100 pounds. And, when eating doesn’t impact your weight- you never have to think about what you are putting into your mouth.
I grew up in a fairly healthy family- we were always forced to have a glass of milk at dinner, my mom wouldn’t let us eat out a lot, and applesauce or fruit was considered a “treat” for dessert. Going to friends houses, I could knock back the nacho dip like a champ, and notice no effects at all. So, I wasn’t quite sure what to do in university.
After 1st year, I moved off campus and now had to buy groceries for myself and walked most places. So, naturally the few pounds I had gained in residence melted away. I also started going to the gym, which I thought I would hate- but loved. Turns out I’m just not athletic!
Anyway, over the years with teaching, commuting, and just being tired all the time, my weight has slowly creeped up. It was slow, but finally my medium self is officially a large. I’d love to take a pic of myself on my 30th birthday and look back and be like, “Look at you with that rockin’ body!” But, at 186 pounds- I can’t say that. The only thing that is good about gaining 50 pounds is that I’ve gone up 2 cups sizes in my bra…
So, here’s my commitment- I just did the fit test for the JCore system- which I think I’m going to like. It was totally embarrassing- my core was so weak I couldn’t do more than one rep without being all wobbly. I commit to the next 40 days- it’s only 20 mins- so if I set my alarm early, that is totally manageable. Also, my natural doc put me on this 1400 cal diet- eliminating many things that are bad for me- and that I’m allergic to. This, plus I’m going to try and work in a walk (it’s spring!) and some yoga every once in a while.
I know 128 is a little out of reach, so I’m aiming for 140. I shall keep you posted!
Any weight loss/excercize tips to share?